That night went a little different than usual. Lance was distant, as if lost in his thoughts and didn't look happy. I told him I was on my period so that he wouldn't try to do anything with me that night and it worked. I sat in bed next to him and waited for him to pass out before I got up and started packing my things. My plan was to pack up my stuff and just start walking to the bus stop and go to work, but first I was going to stop at CVS and get an emergency contraceptive, there was no way I was having his baby. I had just finished and was zipping up my bag when Lance woke up. He looked at me almost with what looked like fear, and sat up quickly. "What are you doing??"
"Im leaving you Lance, I can't do it anymore."
"What do you mean? I thought you were happy, I have given you a place to stay and eat and now you are leaving me?? Why??"
Because I HATE you. Because you have ruined my life. Because you are old and balding and thinking about what you do to me every night makes me want to hurl. Because no matter how many times I wash my body I can never rid myself of the filth you have driven into me. I screamed these thoughts in my head and I wanted so bad to say them to him, but instead I lied again.
"because I miss my family and I just need to go back home. There's no way you can stop me so don't try, I will die trying."
He was silent for a moment staring at me before he finally spoke again. " Fine. Just at least wait until tomorrow please, its not safe for you to walk out here at night"
I wondered if this was a trick and then decided that i actually believed him and agreed. I was starting to get tired anyways. Plus i had been to busy worrying about Lance that I didn't even think about the people lurking out on those streets at night. I climbed back into bed and waited for Lance to sleep, but instead of hearing snores, I heard him crying. It was strange and I ALMOST felt bad, but I knew he was going to let me go and I couldn't have been happier.
The next morning Lance seemed angry. He stomped around his room and his face was empty and cold. He told me Carly would drive me to work and then he sat me down and looked me in the eyes really close. "just promise me you aren't leaving me for some other guy." His grip was tight now.
"I promise. Im going to stay with Teresa from work until I can get a ticket."
"I hope you aren't lying to me." his words gave me chills because I was lying and had no idea what he would do if he found out.
I got my stuff together and Carly dropped me off at work, she seemed sad I was leaving but I think she also understood. I gave her a hug and lugged my things into work. Everyone there looked at me strange when I came in. It looked as if I planned on moving in! I tucked my things under a cabinet and explained to Teresa and Lari what I was doing. Then remembering the "problem" that still lingered inside of me, I made my way to CVS. I went to the counter and asked for an emergency contraceptive. It had only been 48 hours so I was still okay and I said a quick prayer that it would work as I swallowed the pills and then made my way back to work.
Will came in and looked surprised to see all my stuff there already. " I know that you haven't given me your answer yet but I just HAD to get out of there, I don't care if I have to sleep on the street tonight."
"well you won't have to do that because Dustin said yes." I could have done a dance right then and there at the news, but i decided not to make a scene
"The only thing is, he said that you will have to pay 350.00 a month and in return you will get a place to sleep and one meal a day."
"Thats fine! Anything. Thank you so much, I'm so happy right now you couldn't even understand." I said
Yeah the money was kinda pricey. I only made a little over 400 each paycheck after taxes but at this point I didn't care. I was finally free!
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